While at Crossroads...

Why do us human beings when we're hurt or feeling negative we turn to hurting ourselves more indirectly?
Drinking has its comforting factor but most of the time its done in excess to "forget the worries" just to know that the next day we'll feel like crap and/or won't remember.
When did this become acceptable?
Why?
Why bandage the wound instead of treating it?
Why do we mask our hurt, sadness, despair, etc.?
We convince ourselves with false hope and misplaced faith, we have that feeling like we know there's something else that can help us but were scared because we don't understand it. But why do we need to?
If its going to help us feel better isn't that all that counts?
If we can turn to alcohol, drugs, sex, etc. why cant we turn to God?
Maybe its because we (humans) are scared to let go of something were familiar with & "think" we understand to trade it in for something we don't understand. take those of us that grew up getting everything we wanted, never in need, giving us a "sense" of fulfillment, maybe were thinking what can God give me that I don't already have?
Take the story/parable of Nicodemus, Jesus told him he had to get rid of all he had to follow Him but he walked away sad because he had many riches. Everything a person CAN own only provides temporary fulfillment/"happiness", etc. It's like telling the toddler 1 cookie now or 2 cookies later and its always the 1 cookie now. So, do we have an extended version of the child's quota "I want this & I want it now!" If time is something we can't get back why do we waste so much of it?
If it feels so good when we help others, why are we so selfish?
Why do we let embarrassment get the best of us?
Who care what people think?
If we're selfish beings then shouldn't we do what we want then , regardless of what people think?
Approval, rejection, acceptance, denial, independent, co-dependent, empathy, apathy, intelligence, stupidity, ignorance, pretending, being real, anger, fear, sadness, we're just melting pots of emotions, some of us slow cookers.
Why do we always realize the obvious in retrospect?
Why is it so easy for us to see the ugly in the world and not the beauty?
Then you take the ones that do do whatever they wants but if someone they care about looks down or disapproves of a certain action why does it discourage  or stop them?
Because they don't want to "hurt" that person.
We all want to live up to the better version of ourselves.
Why do we feel the need to succumb to our cravings?
What happens of we don't?
ABSOLUTELY FREAKING NOTHING.
We need to stop acting like children with our tantrums!